4 - Man overboard - my first encounter with real grief
Some of the things I have experienced were powerful at the time, but their intensity rapidly sank beneath the choppy waters of my life, and remained only as dry somewhat dissociated narratives. Then, long after they happened, as my ability to feel alive in my body has grown in recent years, I have felt these experiences re-emerge in my memory and with them I can feel the things that happened in my body with much more clarity and depth than I could even when they happened. And I can also feel the way those long-ago experiences had seemingly lain dormant and remained "in the past", but in fact were slowly sprouting roots and subconsciously driving my decisions and directing my path from their invisible hiding places in my body. Coming across the ring of stones in the Arctic, that I described in my previous post, was one such experience. This post is about another one of those experiences, from the same phase of my life, in my early 20's and just out of college. I had gradua...